Mom wrote this in 2009. I think it was right around the time she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. After the diagnosis, she told us, she heard a small voice say, “Be hopeful.”
And so she was. She lived another seven years. Still- as much as Mom taught the Word and ministered to people in day-to-day life just in conversation, she felt like she had not done enough. So many times we told her, “You’ve done so much.” Yet, I believe she felt like God had abandoned her. On her death bed, she told us, she couldn’t understand why. I think she wondered why He would tell her to hope but never heal her. I think she wondered what she had done to make Him turn His back on her. She loved Him with all her heart, and she was heartbroken. She had hoped against hope and her heart was sick.
In the end, I do believe she has received the blessing of what she’d hoped for. It is Peace. It is Love. It is Joy. Rewards for all of her Faith, Hope and Love. -EH
April 21, 2009
When the Desire Cometh
When we hope against hope and all hope seems gone it saddens our heart and our heart aches.
When we have just sit and waited like the man with the one talent that buried it we end up with nothing.
But when the desire to rise above that which we have hoped for and turns into faith, a faith that says regardless I will not let this take my joy.
Regardless I am going to get up and press on.
Prov 13:12 Hope deferred maketh the heart sick: but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life.
1 Sam 22:1 David therefore departed thence, and escaped to the cave Adullam: and when his brethren and all his father’s house heard it, they went down thither to him.
1 Sam 22:2 And every one that was in distress, and every one that was in debt, and everyone that was discontented, gathered themselves unto him; and he became a captain over them: and there were with him about four hundred men.
1 Sam 22:3 And David went thence to Mizpeh of Moab: and he said unto the king of Moab, Let my father and my mother, I pray thee, come forth, and be with you, till I know what God will do for me.
1 Sam 22:4 And he brought them before the king of Moab: and they dwelt with him all the while that David was in the hold.
1 Sam 22:5 And the prophet Gad said unto David, Abide not in the hold; depart, and get thee into the land of Judah. Then David departed, and came into the forest of Hareth.
1 Sam 8:4 Then all the elders of Israel gathered themselves together, and came to Samuel unto Ramah,
1 Sam 8:5 And said unto him, Behold, thou art old, and thy sons walk not in thy ways: now make us a king to judge us like all the nations.
1 Sam 8:6 But the thing displeased Samuel, when they said, Give us a king to judge us. And Samuel prayed unto the LORD.
1 Sam 8:7 And the LORD said unto Samuel, Hearken unto the voice of the people in all that they say unto thee: for they have not rejected thee, but they have rejected me, that I should not reign over them.
1 Sam 8:8 According to all the works which they have done since the day that I brought them up out of Egypt even unto this day, wherewith they have forsaken me, and served other gods, so do they also unto thee.
1 Sam 8:9 Now therefore hearken unto their voice: howbeit yet protest solemnly unto them, and show them the manner of the king that shall reign over them.
The manner of a king
1 Sam 8:10 And Samuel told all the words of the LORD unto the people that asked of him a king.
1 Sam 8:11 And he said, This will be the manner of the king that shall reign over you: He will take your sons, and appoint them for himself, for his chariots, and to be his horsemen; and some shall run before his chariots.
1 Sam 8:12 And he will appoint him captains over thousands, and captains over fifties; and will set them to ear his ground, and to reap his harvest, and to make his instruments of war, and instruments of his chariots.
1 Sam 8:13 And he will take your daughters to be confectionaries, and to be cooks, andto be bakers.
1 Sam 8:14 And he will take your fields, and your vineyards, and your oliveyards, even the best of them, and give them to his servants.
1 Sam 8:15 And he will take the tenth of your seed, and of your vineyards, and give to his officers, and to his servants.
1 Sam 8:16 And he will take your menservants, and your maidservants, and your goodliest young men, and your asses, and put them to his work.
1 Sam 8:17 He will take the tenth of your sheep: and ye shall be his servants.
1 Sam 8:18 And ye shall cry out in that day because of your king which ye shall have chosen you; and the LORD will not hear you in that day.
1 Sam 8:19 Nevertheless the people refused to obey the voice of Samuel; and they said, Nay; but we will have a king over us;
1 Sam 8:20 That we also may be like all the nations; and that our king may judge us, and go out before us, and fight our battles.
1 Sam 8:21 And Samuel heard all the words of the people, and he rehearsed them in the ears of the LORD.
1 Sam 8:22 And the LORD said to Samuel, Hearken unto their voice, and make them a king. And Samuel said unto the men of Israel, Go ye every man unto his city
When we get sick and tired of being sick and tired of being who we are and want to become whose I am, when that desire comes and faith rises up and hope takes holt.
Then the substance of that hope will become evident. You will get up and do .. faith without work is dead.
And that thing that is hoped for will be seen.
It may not be a tangible seen thing but it will be seen and you will know without a shade of a doubt. That that desire that came to you bought you life.
Heb 11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
-Written By Geraldine Hall, 1949-2016